LIFE.

I believe this is the first step to finding closure. I feel like i'm making a big deal of this whole thing. But wells,that's me. I'm the worst when it comes to letting things go. I can't handle my own emotions. I always have the tendency of spilling all my emotions out and very often, screw things up even more. BLAH..... and so.... YUPS,I believe by being a gracious(self proclaimed) person, I'll be able to live a happier and more fulfilling life cause yes, hating someone is indeed tiring. The worst is,deep down, you know you don't really bear any hatred towards the person at all. The hatred that i'm portraying to people and maybe myself, is just for the sake of a fucking word called PRIDE. I'm not a prideful person, but sometimes,you just have to keep that small portion of pride cause that's all that is left of you. I'm someone that don't really take pride that seriously because I believe one should fight for what they want. And in the process of everything, pride is something that should be taken easily upon. Some people just can't fucking put down their pride of theirs and yups,boomz go everything. But for my case, I throw away my pride too easily,way too easily. Back to the topic and so, after much soul-searching and contemplation, I know I don't hate you, maybe a bit of detest and by putting on a i-don't-know-you front,it's just to make myself feel cool about myself cause YAY I ACTUALLY ACTED LIKE I DON'T KNOW YOU. But at the end of the day, you think about it, and you ask yourself,what's the point of doing this actually? You don't really mean it either.....  But i always compare my actions with the other party's action,which is my biggest downfall. I don't have to treat people the way they treat me. If I can ever practise this quote, woah, i think i've reached nirvana HAHA kidding. But anyways, pat on my fucking back for mustering the courage and putting down my pride to drop you a 'still friends" text.  Im hoping that my heart is actually ready for this.