Love/Hate

When loving that person is not an option anymore,all is converted to hatred. 

Because only with hatred,it will at least make one self better.

Fault In Our Stars

"I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you.”

“You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.” 

"Without pain,how could we know joy."

"My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations."

How do one know if they miss the person or just the memorie

I can't accept the fact that till now,you still feel awkward when you see me? what the fuckery. I should be the one that feels that way man. I admit part of me still miss you secretly. If I've the chance to see you,i'll grab it. But whenever i see you,i'll start feeling that tinge of sadness then my emotions will get stirred up and yes,i'll start becoming an emotional wreck. after so long,i thought i'm fucking over you but just to realise that i'm not. someone told me this "getting used to the person's absence doesn't means not harboring anymore feelings for that person." kinda true. i'm just putting you at the back of my mind,but you're still on my mind anyway. Not remembering doesn't means i've forgotten about it. The thoughts of "what if it's not over,things will be bloody hell different now." Yes it definitely will be. But whats the point of all those what ifs,nothing will change. The present won't be altered,i have lost you cause of my juvenile actions and thoughts. I guess i'm taking this so hard and seriously is because i've never really been yearned by anyone before. Since you're the fucking first,i'm definitely taking this more seriously than ever. As I'm typing this,I suddenly thought of You. You are always there loving me,so why am I seeking Mankind's love that is unworthy,that is unpredictable while You,will never ever forsake me. Cause I'm a fucking human. Human always tend to not appreciate the things that are there for them,humans always choose the hard way out. Mankind is so disgusting...i'm disgusted by this ugly world,including myself.

walao stupid rachael. so do you really think that others treats you seriously?

Thought of going back to church....but idk why,something is just holding me back.  all these while i've still been talking to daddygod,but still......idk why am i not going back to church yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ugh i hate myself.