I thought I'm strong enough....but to realize that i was never strong at all. the umpteenth time that i'm repeating this but i really really detest the fact that i get emotionally attached so easily to anything and everything in this fucking world. I get even get emotionally attached to dramas what the flying fuck seriously. Is there some kind of problem with me? Am i just so deprived and needy that i just want to spill a part of me on everything that i know of? holyshit rachael lim. I really want to not give two fucks about everything. Everytime i see a glimpse of hope.i will just hold on it tightly,because i know for someone like me,hope does not come by easily. I'm a fucking needy girl that gets overjoyed when abit of attention is being showered on me. why? because i don't really get any attention from the society. this is what society does to the outcasted ones. whenever i feel that i'm being longed at that moment,i will just plunge myself towards that someone and again,take things too seriously. Desperate is totally the word for me. No one knows except for myself. If i continue venturing out in this world, i will totally go against my own values sooner or later cause im a bitch that gets influenced too easily. I waver too easily.
Conclusion: i fucking loathe this world. or rather i fucking loathe this world cause my weak self cant handle the ugly sides of mankind.
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